need sleeping pills.

my sleeping habits have officially gone from bad to worse. but it’s not all TOO bad, i enjoy being awake while everyone else is on adventures in their dreams. hopefully not too many of my friends are experiencing nightmares right now. well anyways, my sleeping habits are BAD – no matter how much i secretly like it. the sun seems to rise before my eyes can close and remain closed. seems friday night was the only day i can remember not seeing the sun peering in through my window but maybe that is only because i was calling it a night in another bedroom or maybe because i had smoked earlier in the evening? who knows. seems my life is one big question and this new blog of mine seems to be the answer or antidote really.

seems odd that i distanced myself from writing daily for so long. months now it has been, since i had my own journal. 

update on life, same old. school bullshit. wanting a job. wanting to move out at the beginning of july. FINALLY get my license back june 17th. 20th birthday this summer – maybe i shouldn’t hate summer so much. it seems there is a chance there might be a large amount of transformation and happiness in my future. so i apologize summer, i misjudged you a little. but you are way too warm for my liking and people party way too much during you. maybe instead of everyone going out and getting trashed every night they should dedicate one night a week to filling their minds with knowledge – either from a book or from an intelligent being or scientific television show. the sharing of knowledge is amazing, my mind craves it to no end. tell me more, tell me more.

oh but really this journal is simply going to be a daily upkeep of my thoughts, my reactions, my feelings and experiences. and while tossing and turning in my bed as usual – i find myself eventually giving into the demons and reaching for my laptop. and stupid little tidbit on myspace made me smile, thanks to a jonathan paul eves. which i’m sure will be mentioned quite a lot in the entries to come.